Not Emo, Just a Crisis

I'd have to say that I am by no means "emo" or whatever the kids are calling attention starved, sad people these days. Still, I do have the overwhelming sense of why give a crap? As though all things must be lifted and they are way heavier than you anticipated. In contrast, who I am is full of faith in things and people. I, who can revel in birdsong and warm smiles. It's often said, "Melly, its like you're always smiling!" Not true but a fair guess. I really do love people. Thankfully no one said I have to love them all- oh wait, Jesus did. I don't know about him today, he doesn't seem to love me. Today? No, I meant for a long time...Ancient hippies aside, I guess what I'm getting at are feelings of a quarter life crisis.
Sounds silly I know, but I have to point out the vastness of connections in our generation. We have the internet, globalisation and community, with a sense of being alone. This feeling is certainly universal and ageless. However, with all these connections it seems like hardly any are close and real. Like being at a function or party and feeling complete solitude. Without direction and focus, how are we to "find ourselves"?
At the same time, my only answer is effort, perspective and endurance. Which reminds me of "All this". You can wake up one day and say oh christ, all this?! or say ahh, all this! I suppose it's up to choice and will. If you really want to be happy, study the art of it and do it. Another thing easier said than done.